Sunday, November 30, 2014

Thanksgiving... a lot to be thankful for...

This Thanksgiving I have a lot to be thankful for.  My daughters are healthy.  Two of them are buying their first house.

The weekend went as planned to a point.  We drove to Vicki's in Indiana on Wednesday night.  I was disappointed Virginia and Stephanie couldn't get time off to come up but understand that between new job for Virginia and the new house they couldn't make it.

Thursday was good with cooking, hanging out with Vicki, and checking in with the girls in Georgia.  Friday Vicki and I went to JoAnn's for their sale.  The morning was fun with yarn shopping and fabric shopping for Vicki.  Ken sat in the car waiting as we shopped.  He is a very patient man - mostly.

We went to Menards next as they had some things on sale that Ken and Vicki wanted. I wrote in my journal and listened to music.

Friday evening my sister, Alicia called.  My mother suffered a stroke Friday morning.  It was mild and didn't do a lot of damage.  Alicia was busy running errands in the morning but when she got home she noticed mom was a little off.  She took her to urgent care who then sent them to emergency and they did their thing and ended up sending mom to the hospital.  Fortunately this is all in one building.

It is hell being three states away when someone you love is suffering and you just want to go to her.  Normally I would be ten minutes from where she was being treated and could have gone to offer support.  I'm grateful that Alicia and my niece Cristina kept me up-to-date while we were so far away.

After many phone calls apprising me of the situation, we opted to cut our visit a little short and come home about six hours earlier than we had planned.  We got back to town and immediately went to gather with the family.

One of my sister's gave me a run down of how mom was and what the occupational therapist had to say.  It was a relief to hear the information.  We opted not to go visit mom on Saturday night because there was a line of people who all visited her.  We were concerned about taxing her when she needed rest.  Other people were taking care of her, keeping her company.

Today we went over and spent a long time with her.  The doctor came in and the physical therapist came in while I was there.  They were very encouraging and positive about mom's condition.

Tonight I'm grateful to my husband and my daughters who offered their support to me while I was stressed and worried about my mother.  While driving back from Indiana, Ken held my hand while I cried.  I kept flashing back to when my grandmother was in the hospital before she died.  We all lined up in the waiting room for our turn to visit with her.  The comfort of his hand in mine, the strength that he gave me with just holding my hand helped me push those memories away and deal with what was going on rather than the sad memories of losing my grandmother.

My daughters have listened to long conversations about the situation up here.  They have offered their love and support for which I'm very grateful.

Most important, I'm grateful that my mother is doing well and moving towards recovery.  I know she is determined and strong enough to come back from this.  I am glad the medical professionals took good care of her and are helping her recover.

Monday, November 24, 2014


There is a moment when you're writing that you just KNOW what you've written is wrong.  Last night I wrote from 7:00 until 12:00.  I was tooling along, the words were flowing, and things seemed to be going okay until I realized I'd lost my characters and changed them from who they were into completely different people. 

I started a scene and it ran away from me.  I couldn't stop.  After writing 3300 words, I realized I had completely changed how my characters react and interact.  I've had this feeling before and the best course of action is to let it be and come back to it later. 

I shut down my computer.  I got ready for bed and realized I couldn't leave them hanging there.  I went back and started tinkering with the scene.  I hated it even more.  I opted to undo all the redos so it went back to the original I had when I shut down in the first place. 

Then I couldn't sleep.  I knew the story had gone terribly wrong but I wasn't sure where it had gone terribly wrong.  I lay in the dark thinking about it.  This is never a good thing - at least for my being able to sleep.  Eventually I realized I needed to go back to the first scene I had written and change the way a conversation went.  This was where I'd gone wrong.

Finally I knew what I needed to do so I was able to eventually get to sleep.  This morning I woke up and knew exactly what I needed to keep and get rid of all the 3300 words I'd written.  Now I just have to find the time to actual do the changes and get them back on track. 

My characters are probably milling about saying - what is she doing to us?  Fortunately, my inner editor will be able to rescue them from the complete disaster I made of the last two scenes.

Sunday, November 23, 2014

Dragon Lord's Mate

This is my newest novel out.  The cover art is done by TJ Jahns.  She is amazing and talented.

Here is a description of the book:
Dragon Lord Arius must find his mate. During spring rites, he claims Pena, a healer from the Plains. He likes her small body, flame hair, and spunk. Pena wants nothing to do with the Dragon Lord. She wants love. She longs for long and comfort. Arius carries her away from her Plains village to be plundered like the days of old.

Arius saves her life from a large and deadly adder only to have Pena save his life from the deadly bite. In the healing, Pena loses her heart and gains a great love. Arius discovers the woman he lusted after has more depth and skill. He loses his heart to her. Binding her to him, and himself to her, he performs an ancient rite of fertility.

Upon returning to Measc Realta, the Dragon Lord's home, Pena settles into being Lady of the Keep. The people of the mountains love their new lady and cherish her healing skills.

An old enemy for Pena and for the Dragon Clan rises in power. Indirez, connected to the shadow dragon, tries to steal Pena's power and ruin the burgeoning love between Arius and Pena.

Betrayal, courage, strength, all help Pena and Arius face the challenges and danger that invades their town and their clan.

It is available on Amazon and Smashwords in ebook format and by the end of the week will have a paperback as well.

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Friday, November 21, 2014

End of the Week

This week and last were so busy at my day job.  Registration is a stressful and busy time of the year.  This year was of course no different.  By midday yesterday I was tired and ready for the weekend. 

Last night I worked on presents while I listened to an audio book.  The projects were simple and basic which was about all my brain could handle the last two nights.  I did get quite a bit done and am pleased with my progress. 

The yarn I ordered from Herrschners is nearly all used up.  I have eight skeins left I think.  I got some different yarn I'd not worked with before and enjoyed it very much. 

My weekend will include more crocheting as well as processing of a book.  I have one more book which I think is on it's last edits that I want to get out.  I hope to get that done this weekend but only time will tell. 

I finally finished the short story I was working on and got that submitted.  Now I'll have to see if I win.  I'm trying to put it out of my mind until they announce. 

Virginia has asked for the fourth book in the Wayfarer series for her birthday.  This would be okay if I actually had time to write.  I'd love to finish it.  I'm about 18,000 words into it and like where it's going. 

Presents and writing those are my two activities for the most part for the weekend.  I'm hoping to destress from two weeks of registration.  Let go of some of the tension and just enjoy the crocheting and writing. 

Tuesday, November 18, 2014

Too Little Sleep, Too Much To Do

Late night calls reduced the amount of sleep I got over the weekend but it was my girls so of course I took the calls.  This meant after a long day at work, I was tired and wanted nothing more than to go home to bed. 

I know myself well enough to know that if I go to bed at six at night, I'll be up by midnight and grumpy the entire next day.  I opted to work on a gift and listen to a book. 

Sunday while I worked on projects, I watched Finding Your Roots, Person of Interest, NCIS LA, and Elementary.  Most of which I didn't really enjoy.  The first three shows were good but Elementary was predictable - so not a Sherlock Holmes story.  By the time I was done catching up on shows, I was grumpy and annoyed.  I felt like I hadn't made enough progress on crocheting and that watching the shows was mostly a waste of time.

This meant that last night I opted for the book.  I look at Cast in Peril and just couldn't get into it.  It is very slow to start and I'm a little disappointed.  I swapped over to Vengeance in Death.  While I worked on a crochet project, again writing my own patter, I listened to the new book. 

My crochet project I started about six times.  First it was too narrow.  Second I wasn't liking the yarn I had chosen.  Once I had the right yarn and the right width it was easy enough to snap pictures as I worked.  I got about halfway through and just wanted to close my eyes and go to sleep.  However, I finished it.  I like it enough that I'll make it into a leaflet to sell the pattern. 

Tonight I have one more of a similar style project to work on and then I'll see where I am with gifts.  I'm making progress in getting them done.  Once they are done, I'll be able to go back to writing more at night. 

I've got a manuscript I need to do last edits on, create a cover for, and go through production.  I've got two manuscripts I'm partway through writing, I'd love to finish at least one of them.  The other I'm not sure is going to make the cut.  I need to finish writing it and pass it on to my testers.  It is a different genre than I normally write so I'm not sure it is good enough to publish. 

Sunday, November 16, 2014

New Crochet Patterns

Vicki has been encouraging me to put my crochet patterns up for sale.  It makes sense.  I make up the patterns and then I forget them.  This forces me to write them down and document them so when someone says they like something I can easily (I hope) create the item again.

Dish Towel with Hanger:
This is a good one.  I've made countless ones and get requests from certain people for more.  It is great to make for housewarming or wedding shower gifts. I've made these for most of my nieces and nephews who I hope are using them.  It takes a couple of hours and is fairly easy to create.

Woven Winter Scarf:
This turned out really well.  I'm very pleased with this one.  It is a gift and I hope the person doesn't visit my blog to see it.  It's made from worsted weight yarn so it is warm.  Additionally I made it with Wisconsin in mind so it is wider and longer.  That way when the arctic blast hits us, the person can wrap it around her face and try to stay warm and protected.

These are available on Smashwords and Amazon for only 99 cents.  I've also posted them on my web site if you want to take a closer look at them.

I'm working on three or four new patterns so there may be new patterns showing up soon - it just depends on how nice they turn out.

On another note, I started organizing all the gifts I have done and I'm about half done so that is a good thing.  I still have to do the wrapping which is never my strong suit.  I have them organized, it is just a matter of getting them done.

I also got a package from Herrschners on Friday.  It had such lovely things in it.  I'm looking forward to working with the yarn I got and seeing what sort of mischief I can cause with it.  Is there anything better than a bag full of yarn?  Probably but not to a crafting addict like me.

Winter has definitely arrived

This morning we woke up to white lawns instead of green.  It has been cold all week and we've had flurries but nothing stuck.  Last night we got enough and it was cold enough that it stuck.

I'm working at my desk today and looking out at huge snow flakes and chunks of snow falling from the tree.  It is pretty.  I'm also not out in the cold.  This is Wisconsin weather.

I've listened all week to people complaining about the cold and the snow.  My feeling is - this is November what did you expect?  Also we have a lot of winter to get through so you better suck it up because we probably won't see a lot of warm pleasant weather until March (maybe February if we are lucky) or April or later.

There is something magical about the first significant snowfall for me.  It seems to make things slow down, cover up the bumps in the land, smooth things over.  Ken has a fire going in the fireplace and it is a good time to cuddle in to work on crocheting or reading a book (or both if I listen to a book while I crochet).

For me, it is a quieter time of year, spent inside, doing homey things and spending more time with my family (well okay Ken because the girls are not home anymore).

Like everyone else, I'm not fond of the cold but it is the other parts of the winter that I like.  The beauty of the season is astounding with white contrasting with the dark brown of the trees.  The glistening of icicles in the winter light is breathtaking.  The darkness that covers the land feels like a warm blanket, comforting and cuddling.

I don't love driving in the snow and ice.  I don't love worrying about whether this storm is going to be one I need to stay home for or if I can make it to (and from) work without it being dangerous.  I do love the landscape and the energy of the season.  

Saturday, November 15, 2014

Disabled Shouldn't Mean Unable

First let me say, I don't like to burden people or even businesses.  Part of the reason I don't go shopping is because it is too hard in a lot of stores for me to get around.  I use a scooter to move around.

I went to one of my favorite places to shop and I don't think I'll be going back there.  This makes me sad.  JoAnn in Janesville is a nice store, carries a variety of items I like to wander through, has a different variety than Michaels or Hobby Lobby.

I have two difficulties.  Their doors aren't automatic so when I go by myself, I have to struggle to open the door to get in and out.  Now I've found that the people who go to craft stores are really nice and I've almost always had someone offer to open the door for me.

The second difficulty happened today.  I'm always concerned about the aisle width as I'm riding on a scooter.  Today the aisles were so narrow Ken had to move things so I could make turns and even get down the aisles.

In fact, if Ken hadn't gone with me (which is what we both prefer - he hates craft shopping and I hate craft shopping with him), I wouldn't have been able to get to the items I wanted to purchase.

I called the manager and got a "we'll work on that" and "all you have to do is ask" response.  I felt like she fobbed off my concerns.  If you want my business, you will make it so I can get around in your store.  I can manage the door but I can't manage or don't want to have to rearrange your damn store so I can get through to what I want to look at.

I'm not a big shopper in the first place but this just makes it even harder for me to think about shopping.  If I can't get around in your store, I can't buy your products.  I thought stores wanted me to spend my money in them.  Apparently not in some cases.

Friday, November 14, 2014

On Track - ish

Back on schedule - sort of - last night I worked on seven small projects and got them done.  I didn't finish the one project because I want to take the time to lay it out and experiment with the next step.  I want to lay it flat and look it over. 

I also listened to six chapters of my book - Ceremony in Death.  I am enjoying it and actually remember more of this one, including bits of the ending so it is a comfortable read. 

On Goodreads, I'm noticing I have two books I've had there a while.  One is Cast in Peril which I'm trying to listen to (Damn Vicki for telling me the next book in the in Death series) and the other is the paranormal romance I have a hard time getting through.  I need to just barrell my way through it and finish it.  I'm disappointed in the author because I feel I can't finish the over arching story because of the extreme violence she has in the beginning of the story.  I'll get there eventually.

Tonight will be bill paying, crocheting and then I will either watch some stuff on the PBS station or I will listen to more of my book.  This weekend I want to work on projects but I've got a story banging around in my head.  I also have two manuscripts ready for production.  I have a short story I want to finish the edits on so I can submit it to the contest. 

It is also a pay week which means we have to get grocery shopping and other errands done.  One of the things I want to do is get gift bags so I can start packaging up the gifts I've been making.  I have to pick up a button to finish one project.  This means a trip to the craft store which I have a number of coupons for and I'd love to spend some time in. 

All these other things means I'm not writing or working on crocheting but they are probably necessary things to get done.  At the very least this weekend will be busy. 

Thursday, November 13, 2014

Out the Window... completely...

I'm one step away from finishing a project.  I just have one small step before I am done.  It will probably take me an hour.  Last night I was supposed to finish the project off and start on other projects for presents. 

This did not happen.  In my head (my damn brain never stops working), I had a scene I wanted to get written.  It kept playing over and over.  I couldn't stop thinking about it. 

I meant to work on the project but I got distracted.  I opened my computer and started writing the scene.  I meant to work for an hour or so and switch over to the project. 

My sister called to ask me stuff.  I talked to her for a little bit before returning to my scene.  My friend called for a little bit.  She wanted me to read the scene to her.  I read a small bit to her before she said I should just email it to her.  I went back to writing.  I wanted to finish the scene before moving on to the project.

My middle daughter called to talk.  We chatted and she called me out on being distracted.  I was, I wanted to write my scene so I could get to my project. 

By the time I was done with all the phone calls and the scene, I was too tired to finish the project.  I will finish the project tonight.  I will.  I'm determined. 

Unless of course the scenes that are bouncing around in my head demand to be written, in which case, I might not finish the project until this weekend.  In which case, my plan will go out the window again....

Wednesday, November 12, 2014

Falling in Love - again - With Crochet

Crocheting is amazing and beautiful.  I love it when I set out with a plan and it works out.  I’m working on a project (gift for a student worker) and I don’t have a pattern.  It is coming from somewhere in my odd little brain. 

After several false starts, I got a pattern worked out that I liked.  This is going to be a two-step project but I had the colors on hand for the project and I am loving how it is turning out.  Granted I’m done with the first step and I’m pleased with the initial results.  Now hopefully the rest goes as smoothly and as easily.  I’m going to try a couple of different techniques to see how I feel about the look of it. 

I’m using Herrschners Worsted 8 that I got this year for my birthday.  The yarn has a beautiful texture.  It’s soft and warm.  Additionally the colors are vibrant and striking. 

Since I’ve been writing so much, I’ve not had yarn in my hands.  It has been good to feel the yarn slide through my fingers as I crochet.  The indentation on my index finger is back as well.  I wrap the yarn around that finger.  I never notice the indentation being made but I’ll look at my hand and there it is. 

While I crochet, I’ve been listening to audio books.  This is a matter of killing two birds with one stone – or more to the point getting two things done in the space of the same amount of time.  I can listen to a book for hours while I make gifts.  The audio book allows me to get lost in the story while I’m crafting.  I can keep my eyes on my work while I listen.  I love it. 

Tuesday, November 11, 2014

What do we really know about gout?

I have gout.  It is painful and difficult when it flares.  I’m stuck unable to walk and do normal activities like drive.

Over the weekend I spent time with my brother-in-law who also has gout.  We were talking about what sets off our gout.  He told me turkey sets off his gout.  I was surprised to hear this because turkey doesn’t set off my gout. 

  • Limit meet, poultry and fish
  • Cut back on fat
  • Limit or avoid alcohol
  • Limit or avoid foods sweetened with high fructose corn syrup
  • Choose complex carbohydrates
  • Choose low-fat or fat-free dairy products
  • Drink plenty of fluids particularly water 

Basically, I can’t eat anything.  Okay fruits and vegetables are good.  It does say that poultry is better the beef. 

Here’s the thing.  I know when I eat a lot of beef or chocolate or drink a lot of Coke, I have a flare of my gout.  This means I eat beef only occasionally – i.e. once a month or once every couple of months. 

When I get stressed out I lean towards chocolate.  When I get headaches that don’t go away, I lean towards Coke (from McDonalds is most effective).  The problem is these things are really bad for me.  I guess I’ll have to keep trying and see what I need to keep out of my diet and what I can keep.  

Sunday, November 9, 2014

Hermit Grumbling

Finished another student worker gift and am half done with another, as well as discovered I'm more productive listening to an audio book than I am watching tv.  This is probably due to my not having to look up to see what's going on while I'm listening to a book.

Last night Ken and I went to supper with two of my sisters, a nephew, uncle, mom and brother-in-law.  It was a good supper and a good time with the people.  I thoroughly enjoyed being with the people.

Having said that, when I was getting ready to go all I wanted to do was stay home and keep working on my stuff.  I was grumbly about having to go outside my house and my comfort zone of being a hermit to go out to supper.

Now I do laugh at myself because we did have a good time and a good meal.  It was really nice to spend time with Aimee and Jerry because we don't get a lot of time with them.  I enjoy their company and can have a good conversation with them.  It was just me being grumbly about going out.

Today the plan is to stay in all day.  Yes I'm going to be a hermit and work on writing and on crocheting.  I want to finish the student worker gift I'm working on and hopefully start the last one.  I have an idea in my head and I want to see if I can make it work out like I see it in my head.

I've been entering the Writer's of the Future contest every quarter.  This quarter I haven't entered because I didn't love my choice for entering.  I have taken a lot of criticism on the piece and I'm not sure it is up to par for submitting.  Then last night I had a really good idea for a piece that might work out nicely - going to see if I can crank it out in the word limit they have.

It promises to be a full day with crocheting and writing.  There is so much I want to get done and I know I'll be lucky to get like half of it done.  On a positive note, I'm now reading Rapture in Death and enjoying it thoroughly.

Not sure what Ken's plans are for the day but he grumbled something about chores he wanted to get done.  I know he got out the snow blower because they were calling for six inches.  With it being weather, they have of course changed their minds on that.  But the lawn mower is put away and the snow blower is out.  We are switching gears with the season.

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Saturday, November 8, 2014

Crocheting to an Audio Book

Books are amazing.  They take you to a place you can't go on your own whether it is in the future, the past, a distant location, or some other fantasy.  I adore a well told story.

Last night I worked on crocheting again.  I spent four hours working on gifts and got two and a half gifts done.  At the same time I listened to a book.  There is something about having a book read to you that is just entrancing to me.

I find I crochet more, getting more accomplished while I listen to an audio book.  I finished off Immortal in Death and thoroughly enjoyed the entire book.  Today I want to work on more gifts.  This means I'll be finishing the half gift from last night and then I have a larger gift to work on for a student worker who is graduating.

I'll have one more (I think) to finish for student workers and she asked me for something warm as she hates the cold of winter.  I'll work on something for her next.

After that I'll be working on gifts for my faculty.  I've got a huge stash and I'm hoping to be able to pull out of my stash to create all sorts of goodies for them.  I'll have to see what colors I have and such.  I also have new books that I want to try different projects so I guess they are going to be guinea pigs for my crocheting.  I hope they don't mind.

For this weekend, I'm hoping to finish the student worker projects and maybe a little bit of writing projects.  I have to copy stuff over from my flash drive and see what the plan is for the day.  Ken has already run errands and I didn't have to go with.

I've decided that at heart I must be a hermit because once I get into my house, I just want to stay in my house and not go wandering around too much.  It's good to snuggle in - especially as we are getting colder - and just work on projects at home.

I'm going to make sure I take pictures of the projects I'm doing and I'll post them after I've given the gifts.  It is definitely a colorful year for gifts.  I like almost all the colors I have been working with and when I look in the bag of gifts that are done it is great to see the rainbow.

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Friday, November 7, 2014


My life is all about juggling the different aspects of it.  I'm working on a story that is pounding in my head and wanting out.  I have 11,000 plus words done in it already.  I'm also working on holiday gifts of which I have about thirty to make. 

Thursdays are my early day to leave.  I get off work an hour earlier which means I'm home earlier and have more time with Ken.  Last night I spent it with him, eating supper, watching West Wing, and crocheting. 

By nine last night, I had two gifts done and had listened to a couple of hours of my book.  I have three hours left in the book and am hoping to finish it tonight, along with a couple more gifts.  Right now I'm working on the gifts for student workers.  Once I have their gifts done (hopefully this weekend) I'll start on the faculty gifts. 

I could have worked longer last night and started a third gift.  I thought about it but opted for sleep instead.  This week has been a good sleeping week for me with me actually having a couple of nights where I get more than two hours at a time. 

As I was crocheting last night I was thinking about the things I have to get done today.  In order to remember them all, I texted my email a list of what I wanted to remember.  Once I get home, I'll be tackling that list before I go back to crocheting and listening to my book. 

My daughter - have I mentioned that my kids can be a bit smart ass? - my daughter told me the name of the next book in the series.  I told her I wanted to try to listen to a different book once I was done with the current one I'm listening to.  She laughed at me.  This does not seem appropriately respectful but not an uncommon occurrence.  Now of course I know the name of the next book in the series, I'll want to read it. 

To be honest, I am digging the story of Eve and Rourke.  JD Robb (i.e Nora Roberts) is a master crafter of this story and I am thoroughly enjoying it - again.  I think this is the third or fourth time I've read through the entire story.

I'll get to the other books eventually.  I hope I will.  I'm sure it will happen eventually.  I'll get tired of the JD Robb ones - there are a couple in the series I'm not so thrilled with - and then I'll switch over.  However, my goal is to finish Immortal in Death and then switch to Cast in Peril.  I just don't know if that will work as my inner reader rules when it comes to what I listen to. 

Ken and I were talking about the schedule for the weekend.  We only have one commitments so that means a quiet weekend - hopefully.  I'm hoping Sunday will be a good day to sit and crochet all day - hopefully finish a number of projects and gifts. 

Saturday I'm hoping to work on manuscripts but I'll have to see what all we decide to do.  Ken was talking about errands.  It will depend on what and when he wants to do them.  I have a stack of coupons I have to sort out - some for me and some for the girls.  At some point I'd like to clear off the couch as it is filled with manuscripts, crocheting, mail, and other random things.  Maybe I should make a to do list?

Thursday, November 6, 2014

Rhythm of Life

It occurs to me that I listen to a lot of classical music.  I've been teased about it.  In my office, I work with students who are probably thirty years younger than me.  I always tell them they are welcome to put on music they like (within reason for appropriateness for a work setting). 

Almost all of my student workers have told me they like classical music.  This always surprises me that they are interested in this type of music.  I don't know why, my daughters also like classical music though I don't believe they listen to it often. 

The rhythm of my days is working for nine hours, listening to all the things I have to at work from faculty requests to students who need assistance to student workers who need help as they learn new tasks.  My day is spent giving to all of these groups and more.  I enjoy my job but at the end of the day, I'm happy to have a change in rhythm.

I go home, talk to my husband, spend an hour or so with him before he goes to bed.  This is a different rhythm.  It is a slower pace, a quieter pace where we focus on each other. 

Then I get my time.  It doesn't matter if I'm writing or crocheting or what.  This time has a pace all of its own.  The last few nights have all been about listening to an audio book and crocheting.  It is easy, peaceful, rejuvenating.  The flow of my day feeds into the change of pace and change of activity. 

There are smatterings of other things.  I could spend an hour or more talking on the phone with my girls or a friend or some family member.  I could spend the night sitting in the dark thinking (yeah I know this sounds odd but it works for me).  I could spend the night writing battles or love scenes.  All of these have a different rhythm but mostly it is the rhythm that helps me wind down and relax. 

When I listen to classical music, I find it fits in with my mood the best.  It becomes a harmony to the melody of whatever I'm doing.  What I'm doing changes but the basic rhythm is there underneath all the craziness of my life.

Wednesday, November 5, 2014

Two Down

I started listening to Cast in Peril last night and just wasn't into it.  I changed over to Immortal in Death and was instantly involved and engaged.  At the same time I worked on two of the gifts I need to get done. 

I managed to get the two gifts done.  Tonight will be starting a new gift.  It was fun to listen to a book and crochet.  I enjoyed the time and it passed quickly.  After I was done crocheting, I lay in the dark listening to the story until I forced myself to stop. 

This is one of the reasons I don't read at night because when I'm involved in a book I don't want to put the book down.  However, I was good last night and turned the book off around ten.  If this continues to engage me then I see no problem getting gifts done. 

It was this morning before I realized I hadn't missed writing last night.  I'm working on a story that I'd lost the two scenes on and thought I'd be antsy about not writing but I wasn't.  I guess that shows how a good story can distract you.

Tuesday, November 4, 2014

Change of Focus

Starting tonight, I'm going to crochet instead of working on writing.  I need to get a number of gifts made in the next month. 

This weekend I'll probably work on two manuscripts which are close to being done but during the week this week I'm going to either watch tv and crochet or listen to an audio book.  I have three Michelle Sagara books to catch up on.  I also have a ton of JD Robb and Nora Roberts audio books to read.  I'm sure there are other audio books I can listen to as well.

Interestingly, I was listening to Glory in Death and taking note of certain scenes and how she handled certain types of scenes.  I respect her as a writer so as I'm reading her books I'm also researching writing techniques. 

I guess as I'm listening to the books I'm also doing research on writing techniques.  It will be fun to read a book while I'm crocheting.  Two of my favorite activities will get done all at once. 

It is the whole NaNoWriMo but this month doesn't work for me.  I'll be working on crocheting this month.  I wonder if they have a craft project month?  I'm sure they do - they have a month for everything it seems. 

In all likelihood I'll still work on writing on the weekends.  I will go stir crazy if I don't write, especially since I'm almost done with three manuscripts.  Marketing will have to be a focus.  I need to promote more to a wider audience. 

So the plan - I'll see how well this one works - is to crochet and listen to audio books during the week.  Work on manuscripts on the weekend as well as crocheting and listening to audio books.  In the next month I have to finish a lot of presents, three manuscripts, and keep my sanity.  Well okay - the sanity is probably too much to hope for.  I'll have to see how the plan goes. 

Monday, November 3, 2014

Life, Life, Life

Life is what happens when you're planning your life, right?  Unexpectedly, we got to see Virginia this weekend.  It was wonderful to see her but unfortunately, she came home for a funeral of a friend's mother. 

I spent my weekend running around, visiting with people, and accomplishing nothing useful.  I did get some editing done while Virginia was off with her friend. 

Funerals are always difficult.  This time of year is a little rough for me as it is the anniversary of my father's death.  I was pregnant with Vicki at the time.  He was a good man, strong, loving, stubborn, accepting of who I was.  I have to say I've rarely felt as accepted as I did when dad was still here. 

Fall is about endings and most endings I handle just fine.  The ending of my father's life marked me and changed me.  Up until his death, I had experienced death of my grandparents, uncle, cousins, but none of those deaths affected me as much as his.  I miss those people but I miss my dad more. 

Letting go is one of the hardest things we have to do in life.  It is a matter of trusting that when we let go of what we are clinging to that things will be better or we will have a better understanding of whatever we are hanging on to. 

This fall I guess I'm letting go a little more of the grief (yes I still grieve 30 years later) and embracing the memories I have of my father.  I can list off a dozen words to describe him but it doesn't get to the core of how much he loved and cherished his family.  No matter what he accepted and helped us handle what needed to be handled. 

I'm sure he had flaws.  I know he was stubborn and proud.  For me, he listened.  He listened when I felt no one heard.  He hugged when I  needed it and he was firm when I needed that too.  I hope he's proud of who I am and what I've accomplished.  I know he'd love his granddaughters and be excited for their accomplishments. 

Grief is hard, has a hard edge to it and usually eases over time.  There are times when we lose people in our lives who are so dear and precious that the grief never stops but we have to learn to cope with it.  One way I cope is by honoring the person who has passed. 

Back at the Grindstone

With nine days off, you would think I got a lot accomplished.  I did when it comes to spending time with my girls but off my to-do list?  No...