Sunday, September 25, 2011

Busy... very busy

It was definitely a busy weekend.  I got almost everything crossed off my list.  I did get all the homework done I wanted to as well getting most of my forms set up for the new business.

Stone Editing is officially started.  I have no idea whether I will get any customers or work but all I can do is put it out there and do my best.  Now we will see. 

I have one or two smaller things to set up and get done but mostly I’m happy with where I’m at for the business and for homework.  I even got two dvds watched.  The one series can now go back to the library.

Vicki got me two poetry books by Mary Oliver.  I’m going to hopefully have time tomorrow to read them during my lunch hour. 

You’d think with all that I got done I’d be done with lists but I’m not because now I’m turning to the other list which is getting ready for the trip to Georgia!!!!  I cannot wait to see Gin and Stephanie.  I cannot wait to see their new apartment.  I’m hoping it will be a really good time and we get some quality family time in. 

It’s been a good weekend all in all.  It could be that I had a balanced weekend for a change.  Now if only I could discover the secret to complete balance on a daily basis… stop laughing – it could happen…

Saturday, September 24, 2011

More Lists

It’s the weekend and I’d love to just kick back and relax.  That isn’t going to happen.  I’ve decided to start doing editing on the side.  This weekend is my time to get the paperwork in place that I feel I need.  I’ve a bunch of decisions to make like naming my company and how I want my stuff to look. 

After I get that done, I have a list of homework to do including a quiz I’m pretty sure I am not sure I understand the information for plus several chapters to read, a poem to edit, a story to edit and submit.

We have a housewarming party to go to.  That will be fun.  I’m looking forward to that.  It will be my down time for the weekend.  Plus Vicki got from the library our favorite BBC series.  It is the last season they made of this series so that has to be watched before it goes back to the library.  She also found the Ellery Queen series.  Ken loved that show.  It was quite good and I’d really like to see those but this is sadly low on my priority list.

I did watch Monarch on the Glen last night with Vicki.  For part of the time I crocheted but then a cat invaded me and decided I was kitty bed. 

We are going to Georgia next weekend so I have to get my stuff organized for that.  Clothes, bags, and what I’m taking with and what I can leave behind.  On top of all of these things it is a pay week with all the pay week errands.

Looks like I need to make a to-do list so I can stay on track of what needs to get done and by when…

Wednesday, September 21, 2011


Work, school, writing, family, and the beginning of a new semester means I’ve been feeling just a touch overwhelmed. Okay maybe more than a touch.  Today I was able to tackle some of the tasks that have been giggling on the corner of my desk because I just haven’t had time to get to them.  Now a number of them are done. 

My to-do list was over a page on a standard pad of paper.  I had notes in the margins and scribbled every which way.  Today I rewrote my to-do list and discovered all the things I’d crossed off meant that I was down to about 2/3 of the page.  This is a giant leap forward. 

I’m exhausted.  Partly because I’ve not gone to bed before midnight all week with all my homework and other things I need to take care of and partly because I got a lot done today.  It feels good. 

I’m trying to savor this good feeling.  I am going to breathe and enjoy it for at least thirty seconds.  Tonight I have to page through my homework to-do list and hope it isn’t too extensive.

Good news is I discovered on my Kindle that I have the Oxford Dictionary of English.  It is an amazing dictionary and quite extensive.  I am using it regularly.  I also purchased a calendar program which allows me to put in appointments and a to-do list.  This has become my closest friend right now.  I look at it multiple times a day.  It helps keep me on track which is something I definitely need right now.

Sunday, September 18, 2011

Balance of Sorts

Yesterday was a good day.  I did some homework in the morning.  I spent time with a friend in the afternoon.  I spent time with family in the evening.  I wrote at night.  It was a full but good day.

Up at the crack of dawn (okay well really about 8) and sat at my computer played for a bit before showering.  I then worked on homework long enough to get frustrated.  I was getting ready to leave when Vicki said she needed to talk to me before I left. 

The afternoon with Laura was amazing.  Her backyard is beautiful and secluded.  You don't feel like you're in a big city or surrounded by people.  We sat there with a fire going just talking all afternoon.  She fed me and gave me fluid which was nice.  More than that though she fed my soul.  Laura is a great friend.  I can count on her.  She is the type of person I know I can call on and say I need X (you fill in the blank) and she will do everything in her power to help me get it. 

Time with her is like a trip to the spa.  I get to laugh, cry, discuss intellectually (yes Laura I mean that), and just be me.  She is a blessing in my life.  Normally when we gather it is a full day of Laura time.  This time I had to set a limit though because I needed study time. 

I came home and spent time with Ken and Vicki (and their electronics).  We had supper together and watched TV together.  After they went to bed, I sat at my computer and worked on writing.  I was just going to check my email and go to bed but instead I pulled open a story I'm working on and got more of a scene written.  I called a halt at 1:00 am though. 

This morning I've dealt with email, played on the computer, and handled the many rejections in my emails.  I also discovered I have at least an article in a publication (there may be some poems too but I have to wait for my issue to find out).  I'll post it when I get the magazine.  If you are interested in getting my work - look for the next issue of Circle Magazine ( 

Next I'm going to tackle my homework.  It is calling to me.  The procrastinator in me is considering cleaning off my desk though because Ken moved my printer for me so Sasha could have window space on our desk.  I have several chapters to read and a rough draft to do for the next writing assignment.  I guess I'll have to force myself to be good though because the homework needs to come first...

Saturday, September 17, 2011


According to A.Word.A.Day the meaning for this is “a government by the corrupt in which rulers use their official positions for personal gain.”

When I saw this I thought – oh so that is what we are living in now.  We no longer have a democracy which is supposed to be a government led by the people for the people.  We have career politicians who seem to be more interested in lining their pockets than in doing what is best for our country or state.

I don’t claim to know what is best for the entire country or state; however, I do know that the way things are now is not working.  People aren’t working.  Poverty is up.  Education is down.  Debt is up both on the personal level and the governmental level. 

Somehow we have moved from having politicians who took up the office as a way to help the American public to politicians (at least those who get the most press) who think they are gods or untouchable and can do whatever they please.

These politicians need to remember they are there to serve the American public and it should be an honor, not be a way to make a profit for yourself or your cronies.  George W Bush, though not the first, certainly made this his priority.  His rule certainly was the downfall of a number of things but this I think is one of the core issues. 

Public awareness of the issues needs to be increased and well thought out plans need to be put into place to help us move from the disastrous place we are to the good place I know we can get to.

Friday, September 16, 2011

Saw My Breath

Rushing from the house, I stepped outside, took several hurried steps and stopped just a little short.  It is only mid-September but one exhale showed a short puff of white.  Fall has descended on us.  The nip in the air dipped below freezing last night.  It is a bit early but still it feels good. 

I LOVE fall.  It is my favorite season.  The humidity usually dies away as the hint of winter nips at the wind.  The fall flowers are persistently blooming.  The trees start to shut down and show their brilliance. 

Even the smells of fall are amazing.  There seems to be a hint of wood smoke lingering even if we aren’t the ones having a fire.  There is pumpkin with nutmeg and other fragrant spices.  There is apple cider hot or cold to sip at with cinnamon. 

Fall and harvest obviously go hand in hand.  The crops are starting to dry for harvesting.  The colors change and fade but don’t lose their appeal.  The smell of drying corn as you drive the back roads makes you want corn on the cob.  The bounty of the earth, the grains and fruits are plucked and stored. 

September is just the beginning of this here in Wisconsin.  The corn is still green, hasn’t gone that golden tan yet.  There is a hint of a red gold as the sunset hits the tassels.  Tomatoes plump and full of the summer sunshine are ready to be gathered from the vines.  Will they be a fresh reminder of summer in the depth of winter as salsa or sauce?  No matter the sweet fruit will be tasty when winter chills you to the bone.

Fall is the best time of the year…

Sunday, September 11, 2011


Everyone can laugh at me now.  Last night after whining about how hard my homework was, I played on the computer some more and just before I went to bed, I picked up another grammar type book (what can I say I like words) and found the information I needed to make things click.  I laughed at myself because I’d looked in the book already and had dismissed it.  I just picked it up again on a fluke.  Now I have three pages to read that will I think clarify the problems I was having. 

I’m a dork I know.  I just needed to walk away from it instead of letting it overwhelm me.  Now I’m sure today I’ll be able to put the pieces together and figure out what I need to – i.e. connect the theory to actual practice.  Then I’ll move on to my other homework. 

This is a good lesson for me – I can’t do homework non-stop and have it make sense.  At some point my brain shuts down and my frustrations reach critical levels.  (Scotty from the Enterprise is in my head saying 'Captain she cannot take much more of this'.) 

School is just going to take more getting used to than I thought apparently.  I just need to have patience with myself and remember to breathe. 

Feeling Frustrated

I know what you are all going to say to me.  Hang in there it is just the first week.  However, I can’t help how I feel at this point in time.  Let me preface this with a quick outline of my day…

Grocery shopping at 8:30, nearly 11 by the time it was all done and taken care of; lunch and then settling in to study.  I had three chapters to read and some writing to do.  I got my stuff together and decided I would submit some poetry as I could get extra credit for submitting to a couple of publications for my creative writing class.  After lunch I sit at my computer and get a half dozen submissions done.  Then I tackle my language studies book.  I’ve got just one chapter to read a little over twenty pages so should be a breeze right?  WRONG!!!

I’m researching terms on the internet because they aren’t clear in the book.  I’m looking in a dictionary.  I’m whining so much Vicki reads what I’ve read and tries to help.  I’ve only covered about ten pages and it is HOURS later.  I’m feeling frustrated that I’m just not getting it. 

I give up on the one section.  I get most of it and I’m hoping class discussion will clarify it for me.  I move on to the next section which does make more sense to me.  Still I’m tired and frustrated.  I know I’m not learning a damn thing.  I close my book and give up. 

Vicki being a librarian has kindly gone to the library to reserve books to explain my book to me.  Great more reading… I know I’m old and it’s been a long while since I studied grammar but I think I need a refresher course of sorts.  The terminology is killing me.  I think I understand the underlying theory but the terms are throwing me off.

Then I go to my computer to get some down time with relaxing fun emails and games.  In my emails I have two rejections.  Go ahead universe just kick me when I’m down. 

Okay I’m done whining.  I’m going to bed and tomorrow when I get up I’m going to tackle the last ten pages in that book, finish off the two chapters in the other two books and do the damn writing assignment.  Then I’m going to look at the next week of assignments and see what I have to tackle for that. 

I may be down (i.e. damn exhausted, frustrated and annoyed with myself) but I sure as hell am not out. 

Friday, September 9, 2011

Freaked Out to Swamped

Monday we had a house full of people.  It was nice to sit and chat about everything.  We grilled out and filled our tummies with goodies and filled our soul with great companionship.

Tuesday was not such a good day.  I knew I had to be out of the house early so I was up early.  On the verge of leaving when I went to set my bowl of milk down for the cat.  I almost had it on the floor when it fell out of my hand and spilled everywhere.  The cat was thrilled she helped clean it up nicely.  However, it threw me off schedule.

I’m driving to school and I get almost into town and there is a train blocking traffic.  I sit in the extra-long line of cars thinking about alternate routes and realizing I should just stay put.  I pick up Alicia because we ride share on Tuesday and Thursday.  I get to class and I’m feeling rush, behind schedule and nervous.  In the classroom they have these small chairs with desks attached.  Now I’m a large woman.  I try sitting in one and realize I’m going to end up leaning into the desk for an hour and fifteen minutes. 

I enjoyed my class mostly.  Okay I was in pain the entire class period because of the desk.  More than the pain level though I was a bit freaked out by the class.  I made the mistake in the morning of looking at the list of work for my other class. 

I had that moment where I thought HOLY SHIT what have I gotten myself into?  I talked to Vicki and she smacked me (figuratively) and made me realize I could manage all the balls I’m juggling. 

Tuesday night I sat down to organize myself.  I read through syllabi and started homework.  I got a list and got organized.  I have five books for two classes.  I have two binders and a pad of paper.  I’ve got a system in place and think it will work nicely (I hope).  I did my first writing assignment (which I’m refining and editing – again).  I’ll turn that in either tonight or tomorrow.  I did my first quiz and didn’t fail miserably. 

Thursday in class I took part in the discussion and felt I added to the quality of the discussion.  I stayed up way too late working on homework but I think I’ve got a grasp on things – for now.

I’m busy but maintaining.  This weekend I plan to get all the things on my to do list for homework done and maybe even start on the next set of reading.  I at least don’t feel like the material is beyond me.  I know I have the ability to do the work.  Now it is just a matter of hunkering down and getting the work done…

Sunday, September 4, 2011


After a week of overtime and chaos with fifty balls in the air, I took yesterday and did NOTHING.  It was so relaxing to play on the computer and hang out with Ken, Vicki, and Beth.  We did only one thing productive and that was rent a car for our trip to Georgia.

I think my brain just needed to shut down and think on nothing.  I did make a date with a friend to visit her.  I have to email or text another to set up time with her.  I also have to turn down an invite to another friend’s for a party because the timing is bad for me.  One more friend to contact and see if she wants to get together, then I’ll be caught up on the social front mostly. 

With starting school, my time is getting more crunched.  The funny thing is I think I actually like it.  It means I’ll have to make the most of the time I actually get to do things like writing and genealogy. 

While I was a bum yesterday, I have to get my bum in gear today.  Ken and I played together on the computer but now I have to get serious and find my desk, organize my writing, genealogy, bills, etc.  I have to get my stuff ready for work and school next week. 

On top of which I got an email from a cousin with information on a family member I didn’t have before.  I need to write her a note and send her more pictures.  I also have to work on submissions for writing today. 

At some point though, I really want to go sit on the deck.  For the most part this summer it has been too hot and muggy to be outside for me.  I’ve felt trapped but today the a/c is off, windows are open and it feels HEAVENLY.  I’d be tempted to take my crocheting out and sit on the deck to do nothing. 

Mom, Alicia, and Beth are coming down tomorrow to grill out, maybe I’ll drag Stephanie’s afghan out there then and have my down time.  Social time and crocheting – multi tasking once again…

Vicki just brought me a pattern for a wrap which looks amazing.  I read the pattern too and I think it would be easy enough and quick enough to do.  I might have to do one for her and see how fast it works up.  I better stop before I get a giant list of craft stuff I want to do.  Although I seem to remember doing fifteen afghans one year while in school and working.  Maybe I just need to do more to keep me busy and sane (or is that insane?).

Back at the Grindstone

With nine days off, you would think I got a lot accomplished.  I did when it comes to spending time with my girls but off my to-do list?  No...