Friday, October 13, 2017

Days Fly By

It's only October and my life is speeding up.  My weekends are full and busy.  I need a vacation but won't be getting any for the rest of the year. 

We've been working on the house.  By we - I mean, Ken and Vicki with some outside help occasionally.  Vicki's rooms are painted and I think she's got them organized the way she wants them.  Our bathroom has been painted and reorganized.  Our bedroom has begun the process of deep cleaning, painting, and reorganizing. 

On my couch, I have a dozen (maybe more) crochet projects which are in different stages of completion.  The problem - I'm writing.  I counted this morning and have completed eight manuscripts.  Some have been published.  Some are in the editing stage.  Some I'm working on covers and other components.  I need to make gifts for faculty and student workers.  My crochet list is never ending. 

This weekend is busy.  Vicki's going to a book sale event at the state fairgrounds.  It's a pay week so we're going to have all this running around to do.  I've got to pay bills.  Grocery shopping needs to be done.  There are other errands which need to be done. 

Then there is the prep for breakfast and lunch this next week.  We'll have to fit that in.  As is normal, I have this list of things I want to get done but it's looking like this weekend will be filled to overflowing. 

Instead of stressing about the busy weekend, I'm going to attempt to prioritize things and schedule next weekend.  In a part of my head, there's the crazed maniac saying but we have (insert list of a dozen or two dozen things to do).  In another part, is the rational person who is saying there isn't anything earth shattering that has to get done this weekend.  I'll make a list (of course) and do as much prep as I can so I can be ready to do what I need next weekend which shouldn't be as busy - I hope. 

Friday, September 29, 2017

Grumpiness Abounds

It's been a week.  The weather changed and my pain level is up.  I try to remember this most days but sort of lost it at work.  My student worker got to listen to me complain and curse.  I apologized it shouldn't have happened.  I did close my door, call my sister and complain to her.  I got over it mostly but there are just things which annoy  me.  I had one of those days.

All around, rough week.  Pain at levels which are nearly unbearable.  I hear my inner voice saying things I don't really feel or believe but when I'm weighed down with pain it takes me to places I don't want to go.  This is not a plea for pity or sympathy - a statement.  My hope - if I talk about this which I hate doing - someone out there will know they aren't alone and will know someone else understands.

Movement equals agony.  Breathing is work.  For me the worst part is I can't crochet.  I am struggling to write when I've got stories pounding in my head.  The things which lift and change my mood - which is supposed to help - are too painful to do.

This is what chronic pain is.  This is what I deal with.  It makes it hard to be positive and upbeat and pleasant.  My job requires pleasant.

I get through.  I'm not giving in to this bullshit.  The pain will ease.  The pain will fade.  I'll sleep.  I'll work on a story until the pain has shifted.  I'll do what I can to get through it.  It's all I can do.

Part of me wants to rail on the medical community but really what's the point.  I'm to a point where I accept they're not going to help me.  All I can do is find ways to cope.

So on to normal - whatever that is.  It's pay week.  I've paid bills.  Ken and Vicki will run errands tomorrow.  I'm hoping for a quiet weekend.  I'm hoping I can spend time writing and publishing things I have done.  I'll have to see how the weekend goes.

It seems like we always have a lot going on every weekend.  I have a stack of crocheting on my couch I'd like to finish.  I have several projects I'd want to experiment with.  I just need to get my arms, back, and neck to stop hurting.

Tomorrow I can sleep later.  I'm hoping to sleep until I naturally wake up.  This helps with the pain but again, it's a pay week so busy weekend.  I'll see how things go.  Ken and Vicki like to grocery shop at like six in the morning.  I see no reason to acknowledge six am exists.  They're happy morning people.  I'm going to post this blog and go write.  If the writing is going, I hope it will keep me busy for a few hours.

I'm working on an independent story.  If that peters out, I've got Wayfarer 17 and a few other options for working on writing.  I also have editing to do.  Always there seems to be editing to do.

Monday, September 18, 2017

Catching Up

Over the weekend, I got three manuscripts edited and worked on two other manuscripts.  Ken and Vicki did all the errands on Saturday.  Sunday we went out to breakfast.  We have a couple of places we like but wanted to try other places.  So we went somewhere other than our favorites.

The food looked and tasted good but all three of us had unpleasant stomach issues after going to this place.  We will not be returning to that place for a Sunday meal again.

Saturday, I spent a couple hours at Natureland.  I can't hike anymore which makes me exceedingly sad as it's such a nice park.  I sat in my car and edited while the beauty of the place helped me cope with a few things.  I parked in an end stall in order to be out of the way and in the shade.  The tree closest to it seemed to reach down to try to tease me.

It was productive for me to be there.  I turned my phone down.  I worked on editing.  I watched the lake and the trees.  I watched the people come and go.  I wrote two scenes (by hand which means I need to type them up).

Sunday Vicki and I worked on food prep for the week.  I cut up a bunch of stuff for her for lunches and supper tonight.  I made pudding for Ken and Vicki.  We got a lot of stuff done.

Surprisingly, we sold the snare drum which has been on Facebook.  I thought we were going to sell Vicki's table and chairs but unfortunately the guy never showed.  When I messaged him, he said he couldn't get a van.  It would have been nice if he had let me know.

We still have a few things to sell and they are listed on Facebook.  I'll see how they go.

Every weekend we're working on things in the house.  Ken's been painting our bedroom.  We picked a color and they went to get.  I thought it was darker but didn't say anything.  Ken got two walls done and had to go back for more paint.  When they mixed the color, it was different.  There was a bit of back and forth.  It was decided whoever mixed the first gallon did it wrong.  So they got the new gallon for free.  They talked about leaving one of the walls the darker color and painting the other three walls the lighter color.  I'm good with that.

Vicki's been working on getting her space more organized.  She's been painting, building shelves (book and bedside table) and a desk.  She's been working on organizing her books, getting lists made, and making it portable so she can have lists so she knows what she needs to purchase.

I've got several crochet projects I need to work on but the writing has been pushing me.  I've finished a number of things.  I have a meeting with my artist to see about covers and other things.  I'm hoping to finish several projects and get them published soon.

I've been getting journals from all sorts of places.  I took one of them and made it into my writing to do list sort of.  On one page I outlined what I've got the projects I'm working on.  I've been losing track of what stage I'm at for different projects.  This means I'm doing work twice when I shouldn't have to.  Hopefully this will help me keep better track of where I am for the projects.  It will also prompt me to work on different aspects of the projects like writing the synopsis and so on.

In the journal I think I'm going to work on pages for marketing things as well.  Maybe take a page per book and write where I've sent requests for book reviews.  I have a hard time tracking this which again leads to a duplication of work.

I feel like I've been so busy, I hardly have time to breath.  I know it's good because I keep going but there are times I want to just take a moment.  I guess that's why I went to Natureland - to take a moment.  Even though I was editing, it changed my perspective.

Sunday, September 3, 2017

On the Back Deck

It's a three day weekend!  Yesterday I sat on my back deck and spent time with Vicki, Ken and Beth.  I also sat in the front yard and talked to the same people, my mom and my sister.

Today I've had breakfast, made a decision on paint color for the kitchen, and worked on the computer.  There is more work to do on the computer.  I'm hoping my legs last long enough for me to get it all done.

I've been plagued with headaches for about three weeks.  It's annoying and frustrating because there is a lot I want to get done but can't because my head hurts.  What do I need?  A massage.  Unfortunately the budget is not going to stretch for one of those.

The problem with my being down with a headache, I have all these ideas bouncing around in my head and I cannot accomplish any of them.  Depending on the level of headache, sitting in a dark room with silence is about the only thing I can do.

Unusual for me on a Sunday, I've caught up my emails.  I try to take the one day away from all things work like so I can have the downtime my mind needs.  This may be tomorrow as I had a ton of emails to get through.

I'm hoping to get rid of the current headache and either crochet or write after I'm done on the computer.  I've got Wayfarer 17 pushing at me as well as a few other projects.  However, I'm looking at my pile of crochet projects and they are pushing on me too.  I need more time to do stuff - someone needs to win the lottery.

Saturday, September 2, 2017

Published Crochet Pattern!

One of my patterns was published in Pattern Pack Pro through Happily Hooked.  I made a purse from jute and crochet cotton.  I'm thrilled with how it turned out and excited it was published!

With the jute, it's sturdy and holds its shape.  The issue has other interesting patterns as well.  You can see the pictures of the purses on Ravelry.com.

Next I need to figure out what else I want to crochet and submit to try to get published.  I enjoy this publication.  They put out a good product with the magazine but also the patterns are checked before they're published.


Friday, September 1, 2017

Moon Affirmations Journal

Now available in paperback a journal to go along with Moon Affirmations!  I'm really excited about this one.  It was an aha moment for me.  I received some promotional items I ordered for one of my other books (working on a project and needed something to include with my brand).  One of the items I received - journals I made on Vista Print.  They turned out really nice!

In the moment of looking at them I thought - huh?  I should totally do this for Moon Affirmations except with Moon Affirmations, I wanted it to include some of the art from TJ Jahns (go to her website).  She did amazing pictures for the book and I wanted to keep them for the journal as inspiration.

I decided I would create my own journal.  This led to lots of questions.  How do I do lines?  Do I want lines?  I wish journals had both lined pages and blank pages.  I realized it was a great opportunity for me to create what I would want in a journal.  For each chapter heading and day, there are lined pages and blank pages.  Some of the artwork from the original is in there.  Hopefully it will inspire the readers of Moon Affirmations as they do the meditations and work on themselves.

It's available on:
Amazon
Barnes & Noble
Createspace

I'd love to hear feedback on this journal or any of my books or crochet patterns.  Feel free to contact me through my web page or leave a comment on this blog!

Wednesday, August 23, 2017

Where is My Crazy Brain?

In my family, there's a story my maternal grandmother was a descendant from a Native American.  I've heard this story my entire life.  It was interesting to get my DNA testing done and discover where my DNA comes from.  One of which was a slight indicator (1%) of Native American.

But of course, I have two parents.  My father is passed so we couldn't test him.  However, my mom did get tested and we recently got her results.  There was a lot of similarity in our DNA - as you would expect - but interestingly no Native American, not a trace of it.  This means if there was any (which with such a small percentage it's debatable) Native American in my lineage, it came through my father's family.

One of my sisters also got her DNA done and it was fascinating to see the differences between her and I even though we have the same parents.  We were able to see three areas which were not in my mother's DNA so they are good indicators of our father's DNA.

I find genetics a fascinating topic and if I were science minded (which I fail at completely) I would go into genetics.  Now it would be interesting to see how the other siblings compare.  I would also love to have my husband and all my daughters tested.  I just have to convince the people and find the money to do it.

We had our rummage sale over the weekend.  We got rid of several of the big items and some of the other stuff.  When it was done, Ken and Vicki filled up her Equinox and took a load to Goodwill.  During the sale, we only sold two big items which was disappointing.  Vicki suggested we post the other items on Facebook.  So I did.  We sold three more items through Facebook.  I have a number of them still posted and we will see what happens.

We still have items in my garage which will need to be loaded into her car and donated.  I'm hoping that will be on the agenda for this weekend.  There were a few other things which were higher dollar items I want to post to Facebook.  Additionally, I have a bunch of crocheting I want to do.  Preventing me is the need to work on my stories.  They've been taking over!  I love it but it can also be exhausting.

The next thing for me to prep for is to determine if I'm going to make the attempt do the vendor sale in November.  If I am, I need to make a lot more crocheted items - including a lot more variety.  The thing is I feel if I'm going to do the vendor's sale, I should be able to take credit cards.  This I'd have to figure out.  It's a lot of research and I'm not sure I want to hassle with it.  This is why I waffle.

If I do the vendor's sale, I could take my books and crocheting.  I might be able to put out my books and sell some with more profit going into my pocket.  It's definitely something to consider.

Right now on my couch, I have a dozen projects but have been so buy writing, I don't have time to crochet.  I may have to take a Saturday or Sunday to binge watch something and work on finishing projects.  I've been getting ideas and ideas and ideas on projects I want to work on so I know I'll be switching from writing to crocheting in the near future.

Days Fly By

It's only October and my life is speeding up.  My weekends are full and busy.  I need a vacation but won't be getting any for the re...